''I will live as a writer who keeps alive the music of the language, holds head and heart together in the words, and writes in hope and passion that one person will be better because he or she reads what I wrote'' - The Liz Manifesto

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Midnight cravings

Poor little husband had to run to a nearby petrol station because his wife is suddenly craving for chocolate bar. Damn these hormones!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Happy Anniversary

Dear Husband,

Today, is our second wedding anniversary. Happy wedding anniversary my love. Thank you for being the perfect husband anybody could ask for and the world’s greatest daddy. Thank you for being so patience with me. I know I acted irrationally sometimes but you still treat me like queen of the universe. When I was pregnant and my hormone goes up and down like a roller coaster and crazy maniac, I know it is difficult for you to put up with my craziness but you never let me down every time I ask for a back massage.

Today, Amsyar is 10 months old, thank you for taking care of Amsyar, bathe him, wash his poo and feed him when I desperately need a rest.

Today, you have pampered me with full body massage and facial treatment at Sembunyi Spa, Cyberjaya Spa & Resort.  Thank you love for this wonderful treat. I had an amazing time. The sauna was the best part of all. I feel like 5 years younger. This is what I wanted the most and you have fulfilled it.

Today, for the first time I leave Amsyar under your care all by yourself for 3 hours. I know you are tired from driving and don’t get enough sleep from yesterday’s activity but you neither moan nor complaint. I am so proud of Amsyar as well because he doesn’t cry at all. You both are my strengths to live.

I could never ask for more, thank you for everything.

Undying love,
Your wife

Saturday, December 24, 2011

My new handbag

Ok I have bought a new handbag from Parkson One Utama today, this is the picture. I am not sure what brand is this handbag, but for sure it is not Coach. This handbag was placed at XOXO brand section, but the brand tag inside the handbag says otherwise. Anyways, it is not that expensive, it just RM100++

What do you think of this handbag? Do you like it?

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Breastfeeding rocks!

My husband bought me this Medela Pump In Style Advanced Breast Pump With Backpack when I was still 7-8 months pregnant. I breastfed my baby as soon as he was born. The first 6 months, I have an overabundant supply of milk. Amsyar often choke and cough during feedings. I then pump my milk and keep it frozen. The swelling from overly supply was really uncomfortable. There was a time where I could pump 20 ounces of milk per interval. Seriously, it can be this many. Since Medela pumps both breast at once, expressing milk is pretty quick and efficient, I can finish in 10-15 minutes. I love this pump because it is travel friendly, and it has a quiet motor that lets you express discreetly. So it does not disturb your baby when he asleep and I express next to him. 

Amsyar is turning 11 months in one week and still exclusively breastfed. When I say exclusively, it means no formula milk. Mother's milk is ultimately the best source of nutrition for a new born baby, So I highly support breastfeed :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Work or No work?

So I am in dilemma again, I really want to work by next year, when Amsyar is one year old. I have to contribute something to this family, my family financial boat is sinking and I am going to drown. But too many thoughts are in my head right now, like ...
  1. Who wants to look after Amsyar? daycare? nanny? In house maid? 
  2. Is he going to be ok living with another person? 
  3. Can he adapt to new situation? 
  4. Where can I find a good daycare or nanny?
  5. Will they feed my baby on time?
  6. Can they keep him neat and tidy and maintain his basic hygiene?
I think I just pointed out the reasons that stopping me from going to work, Well yes, I don't trust people. I am sure every mothers out there would feel the same. But if I really want to work, I have to do this, Oh my this is so effing worrisome! 

Sunday, December 18, 2011

I need a new handbag

I am so in need of a new handbag, the one I have is ripped and soiled. I'm pretty loyal to my handbags though. Last time I shop for a new handbag was like year ago. I really fancy COACH handbag, can I buy like 10 coach handbags at the same time since I can't decide which one I want? 

Friday, December 16, 2011

Love thy neighbor even though they creep you out

I’m not being a busybody or what but... last night about ten-ish when I was about to leave the house to supermarket I noticed two of my neighbor’s house opposite mine were lights off. Both of thy neighbors were standing outside of their house. One of the neighbors was playing an arrow helicopter novelty toy (the one that can fly out high when you release the rubber band) with his wife and their dog. While the other one was having a beer gathering with his friends. I want to ask, why don't you turn on the lights? and why do you play and drink in the dark? tell me please I want to know!! Or anyone out there care to explain to me these odd behaviors?

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

A little prayer

Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim

Thank you for all the blessings and happiness you have poured upon me and my family. Thank you for letting me live this day, letting me breathe the fresh air, letting my blood runs in my body. Please guide me to the right path and make me a good mother to my children, a good housewife to my husband and a good daughter to my parents. Amin.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Hello Monday

Today is Monday and already the 12th day of December. The countdown for New Year 2012 is around the corner. Last year at this time, I was 7 months pregnant, its incredible how time flies. Think about the things you do in the past. What have you achieved so far?  Are you there yet? Or are you disappointed you haven’t been as successful as you thought you would be and things didn’t go as it planned? Is your financial and health in good shapes?

Okay I have to admit that I have been through not too much but just a little bit of emotional wreck lately. So just bear with me and ignore this post. 

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Laksa and Bubur Durian

Today I cooked Asam laksa and bubur durian. Ok I lied, my husband cook the bubur durian. Those who doesn't know, Laksa is a traditional food from Peranakan culture which is a merger of Chinese and Malay elements. I used fresh mackerel fish that I bought early this morning from Pasar Tani. The fish is poached and then flaked to make the gravy. I added daun kesum, ginger buds, blended dried chilies and dried slice of tamarind fruit to get the sour flavor. As for the noodle, I used thick ones. Some people like better with thin rice noodles, it’s up to individual really.  For the garnishing, I sliced a cucumber, onions, red chilies, boiled eggs, leaf lettuces and lime. 
Assam Laksa

Bubur durian therefore is much easier to cook…

8-10 durian flesh (I don’t remove the seeds)
500ml coconut milk
2 pandan leaves
200ml sugar
½ teaspoon salt

  1. Pour the coconut milk into the pot
  2. Add in the sugar and durian flesh
  3. Add in the salt and pandan leaves
  4. (Add water if the bubur dries up)
  5. Stir thoroughly over medium heat
  6. Ready to serve and eat with glutinous rice or bread
Bubur Durian

Monday, December 05, 2011

Mom & Dad

These are my mom and dad. They are in Moscow now and are deeply missed. If a star could fall every time I think of them, the sky would be black. I want to visit them but the air ticket is so expensive. We are facing an uphill battle due to lack of second income. I am so lonely. I miss you. 

Thursday, December 01, 2011

Fussy Eater

I try to vary Amsyar's menu everyday. He eats twice a day and BF milk in between. Since he has got eczema, allergic to certain foods and lactose intolerance so it is kind of hard to cook his meal. That by not of his fault made him a fussy eater. 

I added a chicken into his puree last time and he ended up having a scaly red patches on his body - that is eczema and it is itchy. So far, he only eats vegetables and fruits based puree. I add with little dried anchovies, tofu and a fish to variety the taste sometimes.

Then comes the battles during mealtimes, it is for me the most stressful aspects in parenthood. It can be tiring to make your baby sit up and eat his meal. Below are my personal strategies how to cope with Amsyar during these stressful mealtimes. 

1) Try to stay calm. Don't put pressure on your baby to eat the food you want him to eat. They will also make a mess on your table and on the floor. Put a bib on to avoid his clothes from getting dirty and place a splash map on the floor to make cleaning up easier. 

2) Let him chew his food slowly. Baby takes time to eat and chew his food. Some babies chew with their gums, but apparently Amsyar swallow them all yet still take forever to finish. 

3) Eat together whenever possible. Join in! he will learn that meals are sociable and fun. 

4) Sing a song and make silly faces. Make eating fun! I don't know if it is just me or other parents out there have to actually sing to make their baby eat their food. 

5) Eat and taste his food. This strategy works! I let him see that I am eating the same food that he's eating. You know baby loves imitating you.

6) Change the venue of meals occasionally. This could be in the dining room, in the kitchen's table, in front of Tvs, on the floor, or even in his walker. I introduced Amsyar to highchair when he can fully supported his back. He seems to enjoy being higher up and see what is around

7) Do not give the same recipe to your baby over and over again. He probably become bored and refuse to eat it after a while. 

8) People say toys, TV and music distracts baby?, well not for Amsyar. He eats with all these so-called distractions around him.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011


I never talked about my siblings or my family in here, have I? Well not that i can recall. 

I have 4 siblings, I'm the second one. I have 1 elder brother and 1 little brother and sister below me. 

Azman - Father. Works with Malaysian High Commission. Lives in Moscow now. Loves to sing. Never shop for his clothes. 

Khaty - Mother. The most amazing and beautiful woman ever. Mother to 4 adorable kids. Cook the best food in the whole world. 

Jazmi - Elder brother. Lives in Seri Kembangan. Single and available. 26 year old. Fav sport is wall climbing.  

Liana - Author of this blog. 24 year old. Happily married with one kid. Full time housewife. Lives in Subang Jaya. 

Saiful - A darling husband and a father to Amsyar. An architect. 36 year old. Eat whatever I cook regardless the taste.  

Amsyar - Cute and adorable. Turning 10 months in few days. Cry a lot. Eat a lot. Poo a lot also. Has two teeth on his bottom gums and bite me everyday. 

Kamil - Male. Studying IT in Politeknik in Penang. 22 year old. Only knows how to cook instant noodle and it tastes delicious. Single.

Izzati - Has a bf. 20 year old. Studying Photography in Uitm Melaka. Loves eating chocolates. Very kind and always helps me cleaning the house. 

Mother/Father in law - Retired government servant. Live in Taiping. Travel a lot. 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

ASI Pills

1 month and half ago, my milk supply started to drop. So I took the ASI pill to boost my milk production and it have saved me. I can feel an increase in my milk supply within 24 to 72 hours after taking the pills. You need to take 5 pills 3 times a day. One box of ASI contains 100 pills, and it is only for RM15.  I would recommend ASI pills to anyone worried about their milk supply. I hope it works for you.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Confinement & Post natal care

Why mothers need to confine? 

Giving birth is both exhausting and emotional. After the birth, you may feel very tired and with your hormones once again changing, very emotional. Physically, you may feel sore, especially if you have had stitches, bleeding, etc. I myself had stitches. It is quite uncomfortable to move around. So mothers who just delivered needs special care to rehabilitate their body physically & mentally. They need to pamper themselves until they are fully healed.

During my confinement period I was still in Abu Dhabi. My mother in law bought me a product from Amway. It is a Tropical formulation that contains herbs (see picture). Both of my parents and my in laws came to Abu Dhabi 2 weeks before my expected due date as I thought I was going to gave birth early. They only be there for 3 weeks. As for little man, he wasn't ready yet to see the world and was 4 days late. When I gave birth, I had to stay in Hospital longer due to jaundice. My parents had already flown back to Moscow when I was still in Hospital :( 3 weeks passed by and it was my in law’s turn to leave. I had to care the baby all by myself at home; my husband's paternity leave is over. My husband is a sweetheart. Before he goes to work, he will boil the herbal bath for me and cook me a breakfast. He will warm up the hot stone as well. (A hot stone or 'bertungku' treatment is where the tungku is rolled gently over the stomach,buttocks and thigh areas. This helps to gently warm the body,improve blood circulation,remove toxins and eliminate wind. The 'bertungku' treatment also beneficial after menstruation). Isn’t he a darling?

3 weeks later, we went back to Malaysia for good. Amsyar was exactly 1 month old. I went back to Taiping to finish my 44 days confinement period. This time, all these bertungku, herbal bath, warm stone therapy, tangas, post natal massage, tummy wrapping, proper confinement meal, etc, are well prepared. 

Amsyar is turning 10 months in 2 weeks and is eating my face now. Oh Amsyar!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Amsyar's sleeping pattern

Amsyar woke up for a milk around 3am something last night and refused to go back to sleep. He was crawling here and there. Please Amsyar not at this time, I'm really sleepy :( I forced him to sleep and tucked him in one and half hour later and right now it is exactly 1.16 am he is clinging on my legs with wide open eyes. Sigh! :(

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Pasar Tani

Sunday is the day where I go to Pasar Tani (farmer’s market). I go to the one in Putra Heights, only 5mins drive. This is when I shop for one-week of groceries and foodstuff. You need to wake up early around 8.00 am to get fresher stock and before the sunlight gets too bright. People say the early bird catches the worm allright. If you come late your choice will most likely have been drastically reduce. So far going to Pasar Tani has become my weekly routine. Why shopping in supermarket where you can find similar but even better fresh foods with more reasonable price in Pasar Tani? So go support your Pasar Tani people!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Driving Range @ Cyberjaya Lake Garden

Mawi invited us for some happy hour time at driving range in Cyberjaya Lake Park. I didn’t know playing golf was hard it always look easy on TV. Anyways, Amsyar was feeling uneasy so I took him to the lake garden. The garden was very relaxing and beautiful. But half way through, he fell asleep. Amsyar you are so not romantic! My husband swung another 100 balls. We were there until Maghrib. We performed our Asar and Maghrib solat before we leave. Lan and Kak Ja joined us afterward. We had our dinner at KFC then mamak because I was suddently craving for roti bakar.

More information on Cyberjaya Lake Park, please visit http://www.cyberview.com.my/kkttc/v2/  

Good morning sunshine!

My pattern has been to get up around 7 @ 8 in the morning and that is when my routine as a housewife and a mother begin. But today is a special day where the sound of my neighbor’s dog barking that irritates me normally was a melodic to my ear. All this accompanied by the melodious sound of the little bird chirping and NO unfriendly sounds of car engines and loud horns making it extra special. Do you know why? Because today is Saturday – where I get to rest and spend some quality time with my family. Oh my, finally its the weekend. I am so in need to rest. My husband woke up early today and helped cleaning the porch. He even helped me watering the plant and shaping the bonsai trees. Then we went for breakfast at mamak nearby.

So what do you think of this girl? Doesn’t she have an interesting life? 

Other than that, since Amsyar started creeping, so we turned the living room into a bedroom. He fell twice from bed - Ouch! Now the entire room is completely safe for him to crawl around in, essentially turning it into a giant playpen for him. Except last two days ago when he woke up unsoundly around 5am and was playing with the wires underneath the TV cabinet. 

Friday, November 18, 2011


This picture taken during last weekend. We went to REX-11 Exhibition at PWTC. Amsyar loves the bean bag sofa? Don't you Amsyar? I'll buy for you later OK cupcakes?

Amsyar is having a bad day

Some days are good and others are bad, just like our days. My snuggly little man is behaving weird these days. He is always crying. He wants to be held all the times. He is crying when I bath him, when I feed him his solid food, when he wants to sleep, or when I put on his clothes. I normally hold him till he sleeps, but now he prefers sleeping on the floor bed and will faster doze off with my sweater in his arms. Apparently he is also losing his appetite. He’s not happy.

I can’t think of any plethora of things anymore that niggling him. He’s hungry? teething? he has gas or a stomach ache? he's tired? lack of communication? his body is itching (he has eczema)? too hot or cold? he's feeling a bit under the weather?I just run a mental list and try to make him as comfortable as possible but realize (in the wise words of my Mother) that every day is different.

Hair products

I have a serious hair loss problem ever since i was a teenager. I always wanted a long hair, but it was depressing to see my hair everywhere, in the bathroom, on my pillow, and on the floor. I read books and it says it is normal to lose 50-100 strands a day. But still i don't want to go bald anytime soon. So i decided to cut my hair again. I spent about quite good number of money on shampoos as well but my hair still falling.

3 months after i gave birth to Amsyar, my hair loss becomes more severe. I could see bald spots on my hair. My heart was shattered as i thought i am going to be permanently bald? I know this is due to a vitamin or mineral deficiency. So i started balance up my diet and eat healthy food. But nothing works! 

I visited Hairven salon at Alamanda one day, to cut my hair short again. I cant not bear to see my hair falling anymore. The hair stylist named Haida recommend me this shampoo, she said it is suited for those with hair loss problem. Many of her customers who have tried this product gave good feedback. 

I've been using this product for 4 months now and it works. I don't see much falling hair anymore... probably 10-20 strands at the most during shower and lesser whenever i comb my hair. I see a lot of baby hairs growing as well. I forgot how much is the shampoo but it is quite pricey, but i still haven't finished it yet. I wash my hair once in 2-3 days so i think it just reasonable. I also use hair tonic, also from Schwarzkopf. So for those who have had a hair problem, i would recommend these product. 

Monday, November 14, 2011

Happy Birthday Mr. Husband

This post is long overdue, but just thought i should share it.

Aug 3rd ago was my husband's birthday and i was planning for something to surprise him. We hardly celebrate his birthdays, nor valentine's day as he just not the type of guy who into these celebrations kind of thing. So back to the topic, here the story goes. I'm jobless so I couldn't afford to plan for something BIG like a trip to Bali or candle light dinner by the ocean or helicopter trip over KL. Instead i purchased a bouquet of pink daisies through online and delivered to his office. Luckily he goes to office early that day. They sent the bouquet around 10 past nine. Phew! 

But that was not all, what a birthday without a cake? So i decided to maybe spend little bit more on cakes. I was searching online again looking for a somebody who can custom homemade a cake and also provides a delivery. I want them to design a Ducati bikes as my husband just bought one recently and A Taste Boutique made it easy. The cake was so pretty! Again i surprised him as he entered the living room!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Miss Universe Malaysia 2012

I am watching Miss Universe Malaysia right now. All the contestants are beautiful, but not as beautiful as Gabriella. She looks like Angelina Jolie though. I have voted for her. :) Kimberly is also pretty, but you gotta choose the best, so Gabriella all the way! This is little bit of her biography...

Full Name: Aileen Gabriella Robinson
Age: 22 - oh my so young!
From: Kuala Lumpur
Occupation: Assistant Principal in Shall We Dance Academy
Hobbies: Performing, travelling, jungle trekking, drawing

Wednesday, November 09, 2011



Why haven't i heard anything from you yet until this time? It is tiring to check my email inbox every hour hoping your email would pop in. Please be kind.


Happy Eid-ul Adha

Wishing everyone happy Eid Mubarak!

Eid-ul Adha or Qorban is one of the most important holiday in Islam world. Qorban means scarify, all the Muslim celebrate this day by sacrifying a cow or a sheep. As for myself and my family, we sacrife a cow. I celebrated Eid in Taiping again this time - at my in laws house. Eid fall on Sunday, so we got 1 day public holiday. I wish the government could give us more holiday. Yikes!

This also means Amsyar's first time Qorban. We brought him to the mosque where the Qorban took place. Of course he cannot understand what is going on, but eventually he will... As a Muslim, I will try my best to teach and guide him as according to what we belief and what have been taught in this religion.

Other updates, my parents are now in Mecca, performing their Umrah and Hajj. I hope all is well at their side, I miss them dearly. They will be back to Moscow on 25th this month. Can't wait to visit them again.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

15 Things to make your parents think you're insane!

1. Follow them around the house everywhere.
2. Moo when they say your name.
3. Run into walls.
4. Say that wearing clothes is against your religion.
5. Stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin on your face and say, good morning sunshine
6. Pluck someone's hair out and yell, "DNA"
7. Wear a sticker that says, "I’m a retard"
8. Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time.
9. In public yell, "No Mom/Dad, I will not make out with you!!"
10. Do what they actually tell you.
11. Jump off the roof, trying to fly.
12. Hold their hand and whisper to them, I see dead people.
13. At everything they say yell, Liar.
14. Try to swim in the floor.
15. Tap on their door all night.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Distance learning

I am really excited and happy to receive an offer letter from USQ. I’ll be studying locally with SEGI College Subang Jaya. I applied for Business Administration program. This course means the world for my career enhancement and for the benefit of my future. My semester will commence on 14th November 2011. Sadly, I had to postpone my semester to the next semester. This is due to so many reasons that are beyond my capability. I just have to be patience for now. At this time I’m waiting for USQ to reply to my mail concerning my postponement. I hope they accepted my request.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


Sigh! I’m so busy nowadays, Mr little man needs my full attention. He is so clingy to me. My day filled with inundated motherhood & house chore tasks, from nursing, feeding, bathing, changing dirty nappy, hand wash his clothes (due to allergic reason), cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry, ironing, etc. Who says it is easy to nurse an infant and be a housewife at the same time? Babies need constant nurture and attention, they wants to be held and comforted from time to time, and it can be tiring sometimes. And you want your house to look tidy and clean so when your husband comes home he’d say ‘home sweet home’… I will try my best to keep you updated as you can see now… xx

Is that a teeth?

I was right... His teeth haven't come through yet, but they are in their way! i can see the tiny little prearly whites just under his bottom gums. Xx

He is 8 months now!

Happy birthday sayang. I love you!

Lets see his development so far...

  1. Can combat crawl forward and backward on his own
  2. Cry and get upset if he sees me walk out the door or when i am out of his sight, whereas he hardly phased when i left the room before
  3. I can see white caps on the bottom of his gum
  4. Interested in every colourful things he sees in front of him and chew them
  5. Still fully breastfeeding and showing no interest to his solid food at times and is refusing bottle feeding
  6. He can not sleep without his pacifier
  7. Can feed himself finger foods
  8. Admiring his reflection in a mirrow
  9. He loves the shower and would not cry a single tear even when the water is cold
  10. His first baby word was 'amca' which i believe he was calling his own name

Sunday, September 11, 2011

To my son - 7 months and 7 days today

My sweet Amsyar. You love mommy so much that you just can't stand being away from mommy too long. I had to hold my pee coz you'd cry if i leave you. You are growing so beautifully healthy and well. You love your solid foods esp. carrot and potato puree. You are gaining weight like it's your job. You love to be hold in mommy's arms and can fall fast asleep in it. Mommy's arms gets so tired sometimes but that is ok. You sleep longer when i go to bed with you. At 6 months you started to say 'amca' and 'dada'. Mommy still waiting for you to say 'mama'. You are farting so loudly that i think it's cute. You are refusing to stay in your car sear and stroller how strong can i hold you long when you are almost 10 kgs now? Your smile and laugh can ease all my pain away. Everyone in the family loves you dearly. Keep growing my love, mommy wants to see more of you.